I'm a bit calmer now. less pissed. which is good, I can write better without swearing so much. I hope :)
after months of practicing, getting the timing right and the formations
after putting so much effort and time in going to practices
I thought I was doing well
I am doing well
evaluations were a few days ago
our dance was considered as in danger (probably because we weren't sync)
but we improved so much since the last evals.
then today, out of the blue, one of the execs posted this on our song page:
"Due to either lack of improvement, lack of commitment, or/and lack of intentions to make this dance the best it can be, which are things all the execs have been told about and also seen ourselves we are replacing: ___ ___ ___ ___"
one of them was me.
4/6 people that were going to be replaced. one month before the show. can this really be what I just read?
one of the 4 being replaced missed most of the practices due to other commitments, so it wouldnt be a surprise if she was cut
but the 3 others?
from what I know, improvement is not the problem. lack of commitment? I think I'm the one who missed the least practices. Actually, I think I went to all of them. Lack of intentions to make this dance the best it can be? Just earlier this day, I tried to correct a few details here and there in order for us to be more in sync because the teacher doesn't seem to care... I mean, having a teacher who doesn't even have the timing right herself.... how can she possibly teach the rest of us? Correcting timing issues.... to make the dance better... was that a bad thing to do? It's not as if I told everyone in a bitchy "oh you don't even know how to do it" kind of way.... more like "let's correct this and this move to make it better for all of us..."
so why am I being replaced? I was so confused at first. Furthermore, the only 2 girls who were not being replaced missed sooooooooo. soooooooooooooooooo. many practices. As far as I know from the practice videos, my movements were sharper and better than at least one of them. So I really didn't get why I was one of the girls being cut. Actually, even the other girls being cut were committed members and did not. absolutely not. deserve to be cut and replaced. I mean, we still have a month to improve any imperfections right?
How upset I was. Already starting with 2 backup songs and now ending with only one. Was it still worth it then? What was the point in continuing hallyu if I only had one backup song left. How was that fair? If they really thought I was not good enough, why even accept me in the first place?
But then I find out the "real" reason of why were being cut. Apparently, we're mad at Yerong because she was the one chosen to be the main person in the dance. Also, apparently, yerong cried cuz she thinks we all hate her/talk shit about her and she has to endure with while smiling. THE FUCK?????? LOOOL??? THE FUUUUCK???? Well, here I learn something new. I had no idea we hated her. Also, fucking execs, THANKS FOR CUTTING US AFTER HEARING ONE SIDE OF THE STORY AND NOT EVEN BOTHERING ASKING US ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED. cuz I still don't fucking know whats happening. Maybe were mad at her? Yeah maybe a little pissed at her. Not because she was the one chosen to be main and not us, oh plz aint nobody got time to hate on her for those reasons... but more because as a teacher, her role is to make sure the dance is going good and correct any details, bad timing, incorrect movements, but she's not doing it right. I kept asking her to perfect the movements before the evals, but no, formations were more important. Thus resulted in us looking really bad and not in sync.And it also pissed me off that she didn't bother learning the correct timing. Because as I teacher, her responsibility is to learn the dance well to be able to teach it to us. She was obviously not taking it seriously.
but seriously... crying to everyone and saying we hate her because she was chosen as the main. depicting us as jealous bitches. what the fuck? resulting in getting us kicked out of the dance? Seriously, we never talked shit behind her back for foul and mean motives to harm her, harass her or whatever she's calling it. Maybe we complained, but isn't that normal? Who wouldn't complain and rage.
crocodile tears girl.... crocodile tears...
well obviously all of us wanted to be main.... but it's not like as if we hate her because she was chosen... for me, I actually didn't really care. If I got main, oh well yay, if I didn't, oh well whatever there weren't really better songs in the second batch anyway.
but bref
what I don't get is the cause of all this
since when did we fucking bully/harass/verbally abuse yerong?
dafak?
I better get some good explanations.
so pissed because of all this drama.
I seriously can't take it anymore.
I can't stand all her fakeness.
pu. capable.
ay am nat capable anymoar.
but thats her tactic. and its working. befriending all the first years, crying crocodile tears in front of everyone. make us look like jealous bitches. getting us kicked out.
does this really make u feel better? do u really crave that much attention from everyone?
what happened to last year's hallyu?
when it was less biased, more fair.
less drama.
more fun.
and seriously to that exec who posted the message.
why are you so whipped.
were supposed to all talk about this tomorrow
all together
I wonder how that will go.......
ugh I hate drama
ugh yifang *slap slap*
you better not cry tomorrow
since u always get too emotional in these kinds of situations
when u have to defend yourself in a situation where youre being treated unfairly...
be stronger and defend yourself against that fat betch!!!
but wouldnt it be hard? when she has already manipulated that many people into her army
or seriously... if you cant take it anymore
why dont you just quit?quit and stop crying
